قطر الحياة (Atr El Hayah) (English translation)

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قطر الحياة (Atr El Hayah)

في كل لفة عقرب ساعة .. عمري بيتسرسب يعدي
الناس والدنيا بتتغير حتي الحديد بيصدي
 
وانا الوحيد واقف مكاني ثابت
في ناس اختارت سكة صابت
ناس تانية اختارت سكة خابت
 
احساس قاسي وصعب لما الناس تشوفك فاشل
ابوك وامك واخواتك واصحابك شايفينك عاطل
 
قوم يابني اسعي وحاول .. والله غلبت احاول
ياما حاولت وقبل الجول مايجي يطلع فاول
 
معنديش مهارة او حتي كوسة وحستي حوسة
ودوست بعد اخر البنزين بدوسة
 
في كل مقابلة شغلانة يتقالي لف نفسك
بشهادتك مدد بجنب اي حيط وخدلك بوسة
 
رجعت فلاش باك حسبت سنين عمري 30 سنه لقيت
حسبت تاني وتالت واتخضيت
 
ببص في المرايه كام شعرايه بيضا لقيت
وابويا هوا اللي لسه بيصرف ع البيت
 
بتعامل من عيلتي علي اني عاله وحالتي حاله
ثقتي بنفسي راحت النجاح بقي استحالة
 
نفسي اهرب من نفسي ومن حالتي ومن عيلتي ومن الدنيا
نفسي القي دنيا تانيه اهرب ليها لو حتي ثانيه
 
وفي يوم قالهالي صحبي واللي يدلك ع الطريق
ميفيدش الصاحب غير صاحبه اسمع من الصديق
 
قالي في قعدة ضرب حلوه بليل عاملينها
سالته هاش ضحك قالي بيسه قولتله لممها
 
قالي متخفش مش ممكن تدمن من اول شكة
اقنعني .. بليل فعلا شكيت بيه اول شكه
 
مفاصلي ساحت وارتاحت وروحي راحت
بكلم نفسي من جوه وبرغي ومن بره ساكت
 
همومي شبه تاهت والرؤيه باهت في باهت
كل مشكله كانت عندي في الدنيا ماتت وتاهت
 
عدت ساعات في ثانيه لقيت الصحبه قايمه
دخلت بيتي وش الفجر عيلتي كانت نايمه
 
دفنت نفسي تحت البطانيه جسمي متلج
نمت ف اقل من ثانيه نومه واحد متبنج
 
قطر الحياه بيعدي بسرعه
سنه ف سنه ف سنه
وانا زي ما انا لما كان عندي سنه
 
هيا هيا الحياه .. هو هو دا انا
زهقت طهقت من الحياه .. تقدر تقول مليت
 
خلتني كنت رجعت تاني للواقع والعكننه
عدي النهارردا بطئ كانه كام شهر او سنه
 
نفسي النهار يعدي بسرعه واضرب تاني
هرجع ملك زماني بعيد عن العالم اللي رمانى
 
خلوني اضرب معاهم كل يوم وبتعزم
خلاص دخلت السكه والطريق بيترسم
 
فاجئني صحبي ف يوم قلهالي في وشي خف تعوم
اجيب فلوس منين ليا وليك نضرب كل يوم
 
شخشخ جيبك يا من قعدتنا دي تكون محروم
من النهارده مفيش ضرب ببلاش .. مفهوم مفهوم
 
روهت وتاني يوم في معاد الضرب جسمي اتكهرب
كرابيك في ظهري ومنخيري سايله وبتسرب
 
عاوز اضرب ومنين اجيب فلوس منين اجيب فلوس
بدات استلف من كل اللي اعرفه وادوس
 
وحتي اخواتي خدت منهم ياما فلوس دروس
كله كرهني وبيهرب مني لاني بتاع فلوس
 
خمسين جنيه في خمسين في ميه في ميه
بسرق يوماتي فلوس من البيت وكله شك فيا
 
نزلت بعت كل حاجه جاتلي في يوم هديه
خلصت فلوس لحد في يوم ماجاتلي فكره هيه
 
هيا .. دهب امي وموبايل اختي ولاب توب اخويا
سرقتهم نزلت اهرب من البيت وقفني ابويا
 
حاول يمنعني مسكني من ايدي جامد زقيته
اتخبط في الحيط وبصلي ازاي ابنه واذيته
 
خد مني كل حاجه وتربس الباب غضب
ساعتها طلبت اغرب حاجه ممكن تطلب
 
عاوز فلوس حالا يا اما هرتكب جريمه
اتهمني بالجنون واداني كام شتيمه
 
ببان كل الاوض بتتفتح عيلتي بتتفرج
لسه بيستوعبوا يمكن دا جد يمكن بنهرج
 
سحبت بنت اختي 3 سنين ناحيه شباك
هاتوا الفلوس لارميها فجاه زاد الارتباك
 
امي بكت بحرقة قدامي .. فقت لثواني
رمتلي فلوس وبصوت عالي .. مشوفش وشك تاني
 
امشي ملكش ام يا ابغض من شيطاني
خدت الفلوس وجريت عارف مش راجع بيتي تاني
 
قطر الحياه بيعدي بسرعه
سنه ف سنه ف سنه
وانا زي ما انا لما كان عندي سنه
 
هيا هيا الحياه .. هو هو دا انا
زهقت طهقت من الحياه .. تقدر تقول مليت أنا
 
خسرت كل اهلي وصحابي بقيت وحيد
ومنين هجيب فلوس لازم القي طريق جديد
 
فجاه افتكرت جار من سني ساكن لوحده طول عمره
ابوه في اعاره بره مصر وشهري فلوس يبعتله
 
شديته زي ما اتشديت انا لنفس الطريق
لقيت مصدر فلوس جديد وبيته لقيت صديق
 
نضرب سوي بفلوسه وفي بيته ملناش ظهور
شقا سنين ابوه خلص كله في اربع شهور
 
وفي ليله بنضرب جاتله مكالمه مصدقهاش
ابوه عرف ان ابنه بيسرقه اتنقل انعاش
 
كل عصب في جسمي اتوتر .. زودت الجرعه اكتر
الجرعه المعتاده خلاص مبقتش تأثر
 
شريط حياتي بيتعرض قدامي لخبر فاخبر
ضربت سنجه في عروقي زودته اكتر واكتر
 
نفسي افني واخلص من الدنيا زي الميه اتبخر
كمان زودت سنه جسمي كله اتلون اصفر
 
صحبي اتفزع قام واتسرع مالك اصفر ليه يا جدع
جسمك عرقان وبتترعش زي اللي م الحيه اتلدع
 
رغم اني غرقان م العرق جسمي متلج موجوع وجع
من خضتي جيت اصلب طولي جسمي ع الارض اترزع
 
جسمي رافض كل امر مني القوه اتهدم ت
والدنيا بتضلم تدريجي وواحده واحده اسودت
 
اخر لقطه في حياتي شوفتها كانت ماساه
صحبي مرعوب وبيراقب فراقي للحياه
 
قطر الحياه بيعدي بسرعه
سنه ف سنه ف سنه
وانا زي ما انا لما كان عندي سنه
 
هيا هيا الحياه .. هو هو دا انا
زهقت طهقت من الحياه .. تقدر تقول مليت انا
 
عمري بسرعه انتهي رجعت شريط حياتي
ملقتش في حاجه عدله تتذكرلي عملتها
 
حياتي راحت مني كلها ضيعتها
ندمنان عل كل لحظه غمقي في يوم انا عشتها
 
يارب اديني فرصه تاني ارجع للحياه
همشي في طريقي صح لحد اخر المنتهي
 
دي حاجه صعبه فعلا انك تختفي م الدنيا
والناس مبتفتكركش بحاجه حلوه لوجه الله
 
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English translation

Atr El Hayah

With every hour my life flows by
People and the world change, even the iron rusts
 
and I'm the only one standing still. Some people choose a way and succeeded; others choose a way and failed
 
It's a hard and cruel feeling that people sees you as a loser
you father, mother, brothers, and friends see you as an unemployed
 
"Get up son and try"
"I swear I've tried"
I've tried a lot and before I score the GOAL, I get a FOUL
 
I have no skills, or even favors, and I’m screwed. And I pushed the gas pedal to the max (meaning. bushed myself beyond my limits)
 
In every job interview I was told to turn around, with my certifications and get lost
 
I made a flashback and calculated how old am I, i found out I was 30
I repeated my calculations and was shocked
 
I looked in the mirror, i saw a lot of white hair
and my father is still the breadwinner of the house
 
I'm treated from my family as a burden
my self-esteem is gone, success is now impossible
 
I wish i could run away from myself, my status, my family, and from life
wish i could escape to another life even for one second
 
And one day, my friend showed me the way
since that is what friend are for
 
he told me there is a nice gathering tonight ( for drug abuse)
I asked him HASH (type of drugs), he laughed and said BISSA(another type), I said I'll be addicted
 
He said "don't worry you can't be an addict from the first shot
he convinced me, and that night I did my first shot
 
my joint relaxes and I couldn't feel my self
Speaking to myself from inside and silent from outside
 
all my worries are gone, my vision is blurry
Every problem I've had in life died and vanished
 
hours went by like seconds, and I found my friends leaving
I entered my home at dawn, and my family were already sleeping.
 
Buried myself under the blanket my body was freezing
slept in less than a second, like I was under sedation
 
life train is flying by fast. year after year after year
and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old
 
it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.
 
i woke up again to the disgusting reality
the day went by so slowly like months or years
 
I wish the day ends fast to take another shot,
to be the king of my world and away from the world that turned its back on me
 
the invited me every day to do drugs with them
it's done, I entered that way and my path is being drawn
 
one day my friend surprised me by saying "don't be a burden on me" straight to my face
"I don't have enough money for you and me to do drugs everyday"
 
"pay up or you will be panned from our nights"
"from today there is no free drugs, do you understand?"
 
I went home, and the next day at drug time my body felt electrified
my back feels like it's being whipped, and my nose is leaking
 
where can I get money?, where I can get money?
I started borrowing from everyone I know
 
I even took my brothers private lessons money
everybody hates me and avoids me, I became a burden on them
 
50 pounds, another 50 pounds, and another 100
Stealing every day from my house, and everybody suspected me
 
I sold every present that I've ever got
Spent all my money, until I had a brilliant idea
 
my mother's gold, my sister's mobile, my brother's laptop
I stole them and attempted to escape,my father stopped me
 
he gripped me hard from the hand, and I pushed him
he hit the wall and looked at me,How did his son hurt him!!
 
he got angry, took every thing from me, and locked the door
that's when I asked for the strangest thing
 
"Give me money now, or I'll commit a crime"
he accused me of craziness and swore on me
 
all the room doors are opening, and my family are watching
still trying to figure out whether we are serious or just missing around
 
I dragged my 3 year old niece towards the window
"Give me money or I'll throw her out" Suddenly the tension increased
 
my mother cried her heart out, and I calmed down for seconds
she threw me money and screamed "I never want to see your face again"
 
"Get out, I'm not your mother anymore, you're worse than the devil"
I took the money and left, and I knew I'll never come back.
 
life train is flying by fast. year after year after year
and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old
 
it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.
 
I lost all my family and friends, now I'm alone
and How do I get money, I have to find another way
 
Suddenly I remembered a neighbor of mine, who has been living alone all his life
His father is working outside Egypt and sending him money every month
 
I draw him to the same road, exactly like it happened to me
I found another source of money, a home, and a friend
 
do drugs together in his house, where no one can see us
All his father's life savings were lost in 4 months
 
and one night, he received a shocking phone call
His father knew that his son is stealing from him, and he entered the Intensive Care
 
all my nerves tensioned, I increased the dose
the usual dose is no longer effective
 
My life flashed before my eyes, nothing good in it
I pushed more poison in my veins and increased the dose even more
 
I wish I would die, get rid of this life, and evaporate like water
I increased the dose even more, and my body turned yellow
 
my friend freaked out "why are u yellow man"
"your body is sweating and you're shaking as if a has snake bit you"
 
and in spite of the sweating, my body is freezing, and really hurt
I freaked out, tried to stand up, but my body hit the floor hard
 
my body is refusing every order from me, there is no strength left
everything is dimming slowly until it's black
 
the last scene of my life was a tragedy
my friend is horrified and watching me dying
 
life train is flying by fast. year after year after year
and I'm still the same as I were when I was 1 year old
 
it's the same life, it's the same "me". I'm bored of life, you can say I'm fed up with it.
 
my life ended fast
I searched my life, but I didn't find anything good I did to be mentioned
 
I lost all my life, I regret every dark moment I've ever lived
 
OH GOD give me another chance to go back to life
I'll walk the right path to the end
 
It's really hard thing (meaning bad thing) that you disappear from the world
and nobody remembers you by anything
 
Submitted by hamza.zatari on Sat, 21/05/2016 - 08:51
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