Inevitably I wake up and
Check the phone next to my head
I take a deep breath and
For awhile try to recall
What happened the night before
Then I take another deep breath
About what I had said
And if I made you uncomfortable
I held onto you, though you said you hate me
I can only remember saying i miss you,
And calling out the name that caused me pain
If only I could clean out my heart
Including every dust
Of memories with you
You’re like a severe addiction
Is my head broken?
Is my heart drunk?
Unsteadily I search and all I can find
Is my world where you used to live
I dial the number to apologize about last night
But I keep hanging up out of
Fear that you will actually answer
I hesitate,
But then I get the courage and wait,
Only a minute passes but it feels like a year
Just want to say I’m sorry
To say I won’t ever do that again
You, on the other side of the phone
Whether you’re busy, or just ignoring me
You seem so far away
If only I could clean out my heart
Including every dust
Of memories with you
You’re like a severe addiction
Is my head broken?
Is my heart drunk?
Unsteadily I search and all I can find
Is my world where you used to live
Those sweet memories brutally
Spread through my body like poison,
Driving me crazy
If only I couldn’t remember
The day we met and I fell in love
Being like this again
By myself is tiresome
My head only memorizes you
My chest only wants to hold you
My body won’t leave you for one second
What can I do… what can i do… what can i do…
What can I do?
Viktoria_4
Sciera
Dom, 06/04/2014 - 20:28
